confusion and dissapointment.

So to begin with, i wasnt excited about going to vegas, but i was going anyways. It was gonna be my bros and their frends. Well now, it will only be one brother (the one i dont like) and his friends. Ugh. I really dont look forward to it now. I can relate to my oldest brother, ildy. He is cool. He is a bit of a dork like me. He is smart, reads a lot, plays bideo games, has two cats. I relate to him the most. But he is not gonna be there. Instead I go with my bro abraham. He is a gansta wanna-be type. He listens to some rock and a lot of hip hop. He says "dog" and "fool". He plays games too, but mostly sports games. Me and ildy play rpg's (everquest and diablo, and worlds of warcraft, etc.)

So Im stuck with the annoying brother. *sigh* atleast i go to vegas, but i will be soo outta place. I can see them trying to buy me a hooker or take me to a strip club or something. eh.

Also, Ildy will be coming down here saturday and leaving sunday. So now I have to be back from vegas by sunday morning, or i will miss out on spending two weeks with him. Wouldnt that suck? He's supposed to teach me to drive!!! What am i gonna do stuck here for two weeks if he leaves without me?

I knew this was gonna happen. If i dont plan something myself, it goes to hell. I had complete trust that my two older bros would work this out since they reserved my bday a year in advance. they failed me both. Well not ildy so much. His work wont let him come to vegas. But i could have soooo just planned to go out with my drinking with friends

I think if i end up missing my brother on sunday ill run away somewhere by myself. I dont wanna be stuck in the valley with nothing to do. Ill make my own vacation!!!! *sigh*

Im seriously in tears right now, cuz abraham just called me and told me all this. I thought it was planned. i thought it was taken care of. Basically he told me that either i go to vegas and not with ildy, or i go with ildy and vegas some other time. I WONT HAVE TIME LATER ON!! i have school coming up! I had to ask for both jobs off of work!!!! Damn him!!!

The compromise is that i only go to vegas for a day and try to be back by sunday morning to leave with ildy. I really hope he helps me learn to drive, otherwise, it will be just two weeks closer to my permit expiring. This really sux. my bday is gonna blow. Atleast ill have fun at perversion tomorrow